Shattered Kisses

i have broken your trust
and thus your heart
what can i do?

can we return
to where we once were?
can we go back
to another time?

i wait on you.
can you still love me?
can you look at me the same?
it is not up to you,
but rather your heart.
something neither of us can control.

my heart is fragile,
i pull away.
afraid to be hurt,
afraid to still love.

what will happen now?
have i squandered the very gift
i waited on for so long?
have i mistreated that
which i was to protect?

where do i go from here?

08.16.2000